TGIF...

Thank God it is Friday!!! So I watched ER last night. For those of you who watched, you will know what I am talking about. I sat here and just bawled through the entire episode. Talk about a show hitting close to home. Watching your brother die...that has to be the worst thing in the whole world. Two years later and it still feels like it was yesterday. I don't understand why. Why did Eddie have to leave? Will I ever be ok with it? Will it ever get better? Everytime I look at my baby, I think to myself...Eddie Boy will never meet his Tio. How bad does that suck? He will never hear his Tio laugh or see him smile, or even have the chance to play with him. my baby is named after my brother, and the funny thing is, I cannot call him "Eddie", because my eyes tear up. I have to call him "Eddie Boy".

On another note, I look so forward to Fridays. That means that Saturday is coming up and I get a couple hours to myself. No kids. Not that I don't love my kids, I do. they meant the world to me. I don't work, so I am home all day, everyday with them. My choice, I know. Sometimes moms need a break.